Thank goodness I had guests lined up this week to post; otherwise, there would not have been any content posted. Today’s the first day I actually feel like placing my fingers on the keyboard.
Monday and Tuesday, I already talked about. That was the honeymoon period. Sure, I didn’t feel great with everything zinging through my veins, but I could handle it. Then…
Tuesday. That afternoon, my cheeks and neck got fiery hot. I talked to the nurse, and she said it could be an allergic reaction, so take some Benadryl. Which was lovely. I took it and took a long, long nap. Just after midnight, early Wednesday morning, was when the real shit hit me.
Every muscle and joint, from my pelvic floor to the tips of my toes, hurt. I couldn’t sit still. I had to constantly rock or shake my feet. For the first 24 hours of that, I didn’t get even so much as a catnap. I relented and took some Hydro and got four hours of sleep, which was helpful, but I remained pretty dazed and uncomfortable throughout Thursday.
It’s Friday now, and it’s better, but all I want to do is steal naps all day long. I get up and shuffle around, then head back to bed. I’m trying to stay away from the Hydro and only use it at night so I can get back to a regular sleep routine. There’s only been light nausea, so that’s good, I guess.
It would be hilarious if I weren’t so miserable how I thought I could plan out my chemo and recovery days. I thought I was giving myself a very generous five days to get back to work. It’s actually blocked out on my calendar like that.
The family has been amazing. They check on me and bring me meals and drinks. It’s up to me to fight this thing, so now that I know, I have to “woman up.” I can do this. I’ll figure out the rhythm and how my body reacts. I’ll figure out what works when I’m tired and cranky because I can’t accept any pity parties from me. What purpose do they serve?
Hope this all makes sense. I’m just journaling at this point, getting it down so I’ll be able to compare it to what comes next. I watched Anne Rice’s Mayfair Witches, Season 1. I didn’t like it, but that could be grumpy me.
I wish everyone health and happiness—and much, much love.
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Sending good thoughts and vibes to you/for you from a Texas fan .. one day at a time .. wanting you to have easier /calm days ahead really soon . I wish you lots of hugs .. 🥰 Pam
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Where did you find Anne Rice’s Witches? Glad you are feeling a little better. Now that you know what to expect you can block off your days as needed
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Bless your heart! Hugs
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Good thoughts and prayers.
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I’m sending prayers and hugs for you. I can’t imagine what you are going through. Rest and take care of you before anything else.
🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
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Pam! Thanks, I’ll take those hugs!
Amy! It’s on Netflix right now.
Mary and Deb! Thank you. All hugs accepted.
Karen! I want to NOT think about me for a bit. Think I’ll go spend some time with my girls.
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I think you are amazing to even be posting at all. Please take care and don’t try to do too much too soon.
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Love you! Hang in!!!
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Mayfair Witches – book never clicked with me. I read it during a bout of strep throat.
**Maybe it should only be read/watched when we are at our best.
Right now, you are in a state of shock. Your mind is getting used to the diagnosis while you were just poisoned!!
You are a walking Dame Agatha story. The good news is that you will learn your body’s new rhythm and keep motoring on.
Pain always leaves a lingering shadow. You just had a hellish experience and little sleep.
It will get better!
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I’m so sorry you’re going through this – you may have to do some odd things to gets you thru the bad times – distractions can help – I get holding the Hydro til night, nights can be very long when you don’t feel well. Glad you have your family around. Hopefully next week will be a lot better.
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Sending good vibes . Believe it or not it does get better.
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Sending good vibes & thoughts to you….🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
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Glad to hear that you weren’t totally incapacitated!The fatigue will remain for quite a while. Remember, your cells are battling all the time and that takes energy! Don’t be too hard on yourself and DO allow yourself a pity party or two. Keeping you in my thoughts. 3llen Wulf
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You’re doing great. Cheering you on from New Mexico.
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Sending you love and hugs and prayers, Delilah. You’re doing amazing!
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Thanks for all your support, ladies!