Well, the day I had dreaded came yesterday. I woke up, showered, and as I was rubbing my hands through my hair to swipe away the suds, my fingers pulled away clumps of hair. It was worse when I stepped out of the shower and attempted to blow-dry my hair. My brush couldn’t get through the knots of hair and pulled our more clumps.
I gave up and called out to my girls. My dd and the 20-year-old went to work, first completing the blow-dry without bothering to brush my hair, then using my SIL’s hair clippers to shave my head. We’d been preparing for this day. I’d made tons of jokes about what my head would look like. I’d imagined a bowling-ball-round kopf. Or worse, the bald woman in Total Recall.
Or perhaps Uncle Fester.
Actually, with a little well applied smoky-eye makeup, I could be a sexier “Aunt Festrine.” Hmmm…
When the 15-year-old got home from school, she said, “You know, you look like The Ancient One in Dr. Strange.”
And I’m okay with that.
Hair is only hair. I met with the oncologist today, wearing one of my chemo hats to protect my head from the sun and spare people’s eyes. We went through where we were going with treatments. I had another white blood cell booster shot. I’m set for port surgery on Thursday and another round of chemo next Monday. I’m marching on.
And just to keep it real, here’s me after the girls shaved me bald. There will be no tears. It’s just hair…
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You look great. It’s just hair.
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I still remember that feeling when you see your hair falling out.
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Hugs!
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Beautiful.
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You have a great attitude. It is only hair and will grow back. My sister went through the same thing several years ago and he4 hair came back beautifully.
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
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You look good bald. Which I think is very lucky because some women, me included look horrible with no hair.
Sending you positive vibes.
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You are beautiful! HUGS!
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When my hair fell out, a few things happened. I didn’t have to worry about fixing my hair after a shower….it felt wonderfully smooth and cool….it gave me the opportunity to wear hats (which I love)…..but also announced to the world that I was a warrior fighting to overcome odds that most people don’t have. Wearing large earrings and necklaces looked cooler with a bald head….learning how to arrange scarves as head wear was fun….and just letting it be as it is when you don’t feel up to doing anything gives you a freedom to say F—k it…leave me alone. Hang in there, sister.
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You are still as beautiful as you always were. Hair is just a thing. It will grow back, or you can buy wigs and be whoever you want to be!
I know I was extremely lucky with the breast cancer, I only had to do radiation.
Hugs and Love to you and your family
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You are beautiful! You can experiment with scarves, wings or hats. Hugs!
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You look absolutely BADASS!!! Love you, Sis!
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Hugs!
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It is just hair. I knew of a couple and the husband shaved his head as well. I admire you. Keep it up!
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Just think no bad hair days anymore and you don’t have to worry about hair sweat. Live it up with no hair! I keep you in my prayers every night. You and your girls! Remember God has this and he will get you trough
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You look like a revered wise woman.
Good luck with your upcoming treatments.
Plus, when you are out– Sunblock!! Your head is not used to direct rays.
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There’s so much freedom with no hair! Baby shampoo on scalp for cleaning
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You look beautiful. Strength is beautiful and rock those hats if that’s what you prefer or just embrace the bald look. I did the same for my mom when it was time and it was a bonding moment that I still remember.
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You had me laughing with all of your what you might look like comments but I think you look good bald. I bet you are rocking the chemo hats!
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Still fierce and beautiful, Delilah. Sending love and hugs and prayers!
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Your fierce vulnerability is inspiring.
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Perfect time to get that head tattoo you were wanting. LOL! Hang in there, warrior woman.
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Sending hugs!